I really do not know how best to start this post. Perhaps there is no eloquent way to say this so I am just going to get it out.
Yesterday, a friend of mine passed away. At her own hand. We met several years ago and then for a time lost contact and then rediscovered each other only last year. She has been broken ever since she lost her daughter and then, with the passing of her brother only a couple of years later in the same way.
I understand why she did this; oh do I understand that dark, dark place all to well. I just wish with everything in me it didn't end this way. That somehow there had been a light for her in that darkness and eventually she could have come out of it.
To my beautiful friend, who I call my Kiwi Rose,
Rest in Peace beautiful. I am so sorry you were broken like this; that there was no other way you could see through this hell. I am sorry we never got the chance to meet up like we were hoping or do most of the things we had planned. I will miss you; both here in blog land and out in real life.
My heart aches for you, for your daughters and although I know you were not fond of your mum after what happened, my heart aches for your whole family too.
Farewell and may you find that elusive peace you have been after for so long.
With much love always,